Being honest is scary...

It's scary, when you're confident in yourself, stable in your beliefs and know that even when it doesn't seem like it you are slowly moving towards your purpose in life (or shall I say goal). I am one in 7 Billion people and it's difficult for me to write these words let a lone utter these words, "I do not believe in God". I would like to clarify this though before you all gasp in utter dismay, heart ache and possibly start having thoughts about me of "how could she", or "why does she not". For those of you who do know me, do I seem to come across as an uncaring person? Am I cold hearted? Evil by any means? Do I judge others for their beliefs? The answers to these are No, I am not uncaring (i am always willing to help people whether they are loved ones or strangers and if they will let me help them), No, I am not cold hearted (i have a huge, warm heart, open to all of those around me), NO, I am certainly not evil (i do not wish bad upon another, I do not wish death, or sadness upon those that I may not agree with), and HELL NO do I not judge others for their beliefs! We are all one to our own and have every right imaginable to believe what we want to. 

It's absolutely beautiful for a person who may not have a single soul around to lean on, to be able to find comfort in the belief of something or someone higher than they are. 

For me, I have not cut off my mind, soul or heart to the cultures of the world. I chose to learn from them all. Is there something wrong with that? I don't believe so, though others would argue that with me. They would argue that there is only one true way to believe or follow, that only one "God" out there is the right God and all of the others are wrong. My question to them though is, "is there only one way to get to your destination", "is there only one way to write a song", "is there always only one answer to a question"? There are many ways to get to where you are going in life, there are many versus to a song, and there are always multiple answers to a question. Though the direction taken, the words written and the path chosen are up to who ever is making those decisions. They are not wrong, they are what is chosen. I have the right and free will to chose what I believe in, and that does not mean that I will go to Hell because of it, and that does not mean that I won't go to Heaven because of it. Those two places are what you make them. 

If there is life after death I feel I will certainly go somewhere, because I am a good person. I do have my flaws in life but don't we all. 

On a final note, I want you all to know that I do have Faith. I just chose not to put all of my Faith into something I can not bring myself to believe in. I also can not bring myself to chose one "right" out of so many other wonderful things in life. 

I hold nothing against those who choose the path of Jesus Christ, just please remember to grant me the courtesy and all of the other people you may come across to not push your beliefs on me or those around you. That is all I ask.